This is a story of a girl who saved by Christ. This is her Christian blog where she blogs and posts her experiences and thoughts, through her Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Her Christ who comes into her life and shed light into the dark and sinful corners of her heart. The one who saves her from her dark and dreary life. This blog is connected to theroomofsecrethoughts
There is no love like your love for me. Because only your love, I know that true. It’s boundless and pure. I know that only you, who can trust my heart, because never breaks my heart. Your love which loves me unconditionally. You’re different, and your love is special. I know, because only you who prove that your love never fails. Your love never hurts me. It made me cry, not because of the pain, but because of the joy it gives through me. Your love is not selfish; in fact, your love is for everyone. Your love that opens my heart and takes away all the pain it feels inside. Your love that fixed and cleansed my heart. Your love is the only love that taught me the right path that I should go through. Only your love that never gives up, it never gets tired of me. It still loves and it never stops, although many times I made you broken. Only your love, who loves me like this and no one, could love me like you do. No one ever cared for me like you do; no one else could take the sin and darkness from me. There’s no love like your love that brings salvation to me, and it’s your love Jesus.
I will always praise you Lord for all eternity. I will bow down and worship you, for you are my God, for you are the one I trust and believe. I’ll always sing for you, and shout it out your name, for you to know that you’re all I need. I will lift my hands to you; for your strong presence, I feel inside. I will be forever faithful to you Lord, for your unfailing love for me. I offered my life with you, for I honored and glorify you, Lord. I will praise you and my heart is in you Lord, for all eternity, for you deserve this, for you are my only God, Jesus.
I am the person who will never stick to just what she’s only now. I’m not the person, who will only do and try what she only can. Who will only do what she only wants to do. Who will always make her imperfections as a reason or excuse. Who will always make her dislikes to be a reason not to try or discover new things. A person who will make her weakness as a excuse to be not a better person. But I’m the person who never stops improving herself, who never stops trying and discovering new things, because she will never be contented, until she found herself a successful and a better person.
I’m still able to see the sunrise and the sunset. I am still able to hear birds sing and waves crash. I’m still able to see how wonderful sky and clouds look together. I’m still able to hear the noise of laughter of small children and see them playing around. I can still walk outside and feel the breeze through my hair and the sun’s warmth on my skin. I’m still able to breathe and feel its heat. I can still appreciate how beautiful trees and everything surrounds me. After the long night I’ve wished and prayed to die, after the long night I’m ready to skip my life, but the moment I woke up, my life is still not up, my life is still not done, my life is not yet finished, and my life is still continuing to its journey. When I looked around, I am still in the world I have tried to escape, and realizes I am still alive, I want to cry, I want to scream so loud, why I’m still here. I opened the window where I can see God’s wonderful creatures, and I just suddenly have realized, I still had this privilege to simply be alive and time to be happy. I still had this privilege to love and appreciate how beautiful life is, I still had this privilege to embrace the world and especially a time to be a good disciple.
In the world where we are in, DEPENDENCY is seen as immaturity. But in God’s Kingdom, DEPENDENCE on him is a prime measure of maturity
God is working with my life now. I remember how many times I ignored Him in my life, his words, his actions and everything. But throughout my life, I thought I was a Christian and I believe that I have big faith in Him, and through all this time my thought was wrong. I actually lost in him; I chose my own desires than his will and desires. I lived in a very sinful life; I often don’t listen to Him. I thought I had a big faith in Him; I always let Him decide for me, yet I have always one thing I can’t give up to Him, and keep ignoring Him, is it the big faith? No, because through all this time, I am just a Christian by words and there were a lot of people like me. The one thing I can’t give up before, I’ve finally now learn how to give up on him. I’ve finally felt his power, his presence and I feel I’m born again. I’ve just now realized so many things, like all of my thoughts before were all wrong. I’ve realized that it was true, that when you trust in Him, when you give up everything upon Him and let him control your life, you will feel his love, his presence, his power, that all his words and promises were all true, and you will feel how real God is great, because you chose to trust Him. This is the true happiness; I have been waiting for so long, the true happiness that I can only search in him. He is the most able God. He is the real God, and I want you to feel and experience too, how God is truly working in our lives, when we choose and trust Him.
I know that all I ever needed now was Christ. He is all I trusted, nothing else but only him. People have betrayed me for a million times, and only Christ who will never ever do it with me, and I know He is all I have to thank for, because he’s the only one who deserves praise and thankfulness. Only he who knows how it’s still hard to cope with my life now, he knows there are still lots of things and memories in my mind, that keeps on haunting me through the day and night of my life, and it’s not easy. It will take a long process and time to bring back my real smile, but I always find reasons to be happy again. I’ve already surrendered everything to HIM, and I know he was the one processing me to be a better new one, and I know I’m not alone. I may be still find myself being lonely and numb sometimes, but I ensure that after this process, it will completely transform me, I will reborn, my old life and personality will be gone, because I have made the Lord as my safe place. I will not be afraid anymore. I will not be afraid, when night comes and I’m all alone, and in a nightmare, I am safe. A thousand of hindrances may fall at my side, and challenge me how strong enough my faithful for HIM, and I promise to hold his hand. I will be in the place where He lives, where nothing will hurt me. Fearful, anxious thoughts will melt away in the light of His presence. He is all I ever need. Why I can say so? Because I’ve proven that He is not just a God made by human hands – HE IS REAL.
Lord, give me strengths, I know can make it with you. Please help me to put my past behind me, so I can move forward and eventually be happy.
From now on, it will be your words that I’ll listen forever. I’m lonely, it was your words, who comforted me. I’m crying, it was your words, who wiped it. I’m wounded, it was your words, who healed me. I’m broken, it was your words, who fixed me. It was all your words, your promises and YOU, who comforted me, in the nights when all I felt was loneliness and pain. It was your words, who lifted me up, when I’m down and drowning in my sorrow. It was your words, who give me strength and hope, when I’m starting to give up. It was your words, I ignored before, but it was now your words, I didn’t imagine, who will save me from the life I’ve tried to escape for so how many times. I ignored it for a million times in my life, it was just word of others, who I gave importance through all these times. The words I gave importance was the one who broke me, but the words I ignored for so how many times, was the one who lifted, healed, helped, saved, and comforted me. It was your words who are only true. So from now on, I will listen to your words forever, Jesus.